Good evening to all ... It's been way too long since the last post on this blog ... just a few days ago, after seeing a comment on facebook Henry, I had returned Novarepubblica in mind, this project that we had so much passion is not more than two years ago ... We were still of high school students, full of high hopes, ideas and dreams ... But times change ... We've grown, we have matured (some more and some less) and we gave the place to our lives.
Perhaps the post you write will not read it no one except the usual four more people, to limit some "wild card" that you will find on the blog by accident, but I do not care because the important thing is to write, is to give free rein to thoughts and words that studded my mind and making me carry the music of One Republic write.
I want to write about us, what we spent to get this 2010, our adventures, risks that we ran ... Yes, because if I remember correctly we were also investigated for our "game".
We started in 4: I, Louis, and Stephen C Henry. I obviously have been the most Cazzaro of all, what usually is described as "a person bbona. But there is success in these two years?
Henry almost got married and now studying in turin.
Luigi has always been the most consistent of all perhaps, the one who brought forward his unconventional thinking and always the person who has always maintained the cause for which they fought and never gave up, and that is why I respect you ... You always said your ideas, you always fought for your ideals when you were probably many other things to think about. You place the common good in front of everything and in front of yourself. And now you continue to apply to Politecnico di Torino, where I hope he breaks.
Stefano has lived a life more often than "parallel" to my own dancing, girls, representing the school, studio ... Hardly play a very similar life but he managed fortuanatamente a person to be a bit more detached from feelings and emotions and this is what distinguished me from ... Already ...
I do what I concluded in these two years? Still I wonder ... I started from a Cazzaro, a first-class asshole who put himself first, then himself, and so even himself, self-centeredness that person in fact. I was sure of myself, sure of my future, sure to go away from a land that supposedly hated it, but apparently is not so ... After 19 years of arrogance towards the others, I made the mistake not to put me more at the center of the world but rather a girl who maybe nn has never deserved all the attention that I gave, I made the mistake to grant and apririmi of a person who in the end I took the soul thrown in the toilet and broke it, I made the terrible mistake of falling in love with words, but above all I persevere in my stupid mistake because as I continue to worship a person that I was clearly I understand that you do not count for anything. And now I feel like a semi-failed because everything has led me to abandon many of the dreams I had that I now have to build a future in a much more difficult than I expected. I still make mistakes every day creandomi own problems just to complicate life and keep me busy and do not let me suck from the monotony of quotidianetà . Seeking revenge against people who may not even deserve my attention. But why all this? Maybe because when I said that between us we have matured to a greater or lesser degree, unless that's me, maybe I can not understand that life is not all downhill as can be for a teenager, but made of problems, continuous daily struggle and I can not accept this. I can not accept the fact of not have more complete control over everything that surrounds me. I think that Stephen is gone to Rome and is trying to build a future in spite of many difficulties, while I ran away from Rome with his tail between his legs because I could not face the difficulties of adaptation, the detachment from people close to me , plus some other personal problem ... But maybe I'm just pathetic ... All I do is complain, when in the world there are people who would pay gold to have the life that I do ... A life full of vices, legal and illegal, yet I do not fit me ...
Maybe I take too seriously the future, believing that it is not able to deal with a bad psychological state that has been going on for more than 6 months ...
I want to thank all of you that you were beside me and who you are today. Everyone who saw me cry when I was not fooled, but they wanted to inspire hope. I want to say thanks to Luigi Zullino, Capodieci Stefano, Marco Profile, Siodambro Chiara, Francesco Gioia, Cosimo Vadacca, Marco Sanna Chiara Rizzo. I must also thank Elisa something because you made me understand, but I still have not figured out exactly what.
I want to appeal then ... People, you live, do not care about the obstacles that life puts you and aggirateli, wake up in the morning and laugh, rejoice that a new day full of new possibilities are open to you, have fun, not riducetevi to hate yourself for the mistakes made, but rather be satisfied with the things you have concluded ...
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